"A ship in a harbour is safe but that is not what ships are built for..."

[lollilolli2020]

Wrote this staring at the photos in my pooja hall..

It was a pleasant Friday.
Temperature around 60's
It's 3pm
Wife(on EAD) a lone bread winner is sitting in a production support call from morning she just had a coffee I guess 
Tat 2 Dosa I made her around 1 o'clock is still on the table untouched and water bottle is also unopened.

First kid(10) who has a heavy cold is  not letting me move. With the blocked nose she is literally on my lap from morning.
Second kid (1.5)just got up., Donno why she is crying but it ll continue for another 1 hour for sure..

I am in the verge...I need to get the job as soon as possible. (60 Days grace period..) 
I have an interview at 3:30pm..
Haven't even prepared for it.
My pressure  level can't be measured by the medical metrics.
Heart might burst...
Somewhere in the buttom of the stomach it's paining. 
I just remembered I didn't ate anything from the morning except a tea n 3 milkbikies biscuits.

Time is ticking..
Consultancy guys calling to confirm the interview.

I can't even pick the call..

It's 3:20..
Now the BP is at its best...
If someone can capture this moment it's one hell of the moment in my life..
Everyone is shouting 

Wat can save this Family.?
3:29
Modem light goes red..
Wife shouts "hello hellooo..."
.
YouTube video in the TV has started to load with tat circle dots..
No wifi..
The internet is gone..

Suddenly kids too started to be quite for some reason 
The whole house sounds nil..

Wife closed her laptop came straight n laid on my lap..

The kona Ice cream van crosses by with some song..
There was tat cold breeze hitting my forehead..

Is this called Heaven?
Or does heaven feels like this..?

Dear God, I donno wat ll happen to us in next 2  months..
But, this is the state of many lowest middle class ppl in US. Who survive on paycheck -paycheck.
U don't have to Save us.
Eventually we ll die soon thanks to this wonderful dream(which we choose)
But Plz save our kids..!

- H1B VISA Holders 

Note :  
I know someone ll say who is asking U to struggle, Why not go back to India.

For them "A ship in a harbour is safe but that is not what ships are built for..."

Some point we ll be fine, till then V need to hold.
It's exhausting..
I wanted to shout from my bottom of the stomach..
Can't help 

Trollers U r free to troll
Fellow H1B siblings Lets mourn ourselves..
Ppl who feels for us Plz pray for us to survive.
Coz.. Have seen too many Cardiac Arrest cases in the past 1 yr.

Thank U

 

cc @kevinUsa @tennisluvrredux

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