Estory - 2 : Confused Fafa

[k2s]

Hi Friends, i am now in a critical situation in my life. i need your kind suggestions on how to deal my problem;
infact what the clear picture is.
i got married before 7 yrs now with 3yrs old kid.we r living separately in a apartment, my pils r living 3 hrs away.
my pils are so rude, dominant, heart-less persons. For them i am just a slave and a robot.Though my dh has some soft corner for me, he is a xerox copy his parents and do what they wish. he is a very obediant son, fears so much about his parents, especially to his father; even if my fil gives an angry look, my dh will shiver.he even fears to love me, as its against his parents.
from the starting of the marriage, if we have any arguments or even small fight, he immediately call his parents and mine.
then his parents give a judgement speech against me and my family, then i have to go to my home for some weeks as punishment. i faced a lot in this marriage, attempted suicide, gone to pshyciatrist for depression, even he beat me while i was pregnant and i ran out of the house, fearing of abortion; so many things happened in this married life.
But, before one yr, i just shouted back to his father, that i will not take their injustise or spoiling of my marriage any more.i just shouted and fight; all r shocked to see, i am fighting; even i wonder of me, that i have that much courage?. Then for one month i was in my mother's home, no contact b/w me and my h, but my asked all excuses and all to my h. then after 1 month i went to my house.
After that, things seems to change slowly. i went to psyciatrist for getting more anger and for depression. my h reduces his unnecessary talks to his parents. he talks nicely to me and asks for the past. It gives some breath, but i cant take his . for past 6 yrs i went thru such a tragedy, my career spoiled, etc for no reason and wrong i did. all went washed off in a single word ? at the same time we had the onsight opportunity. so we moved to abroad 5 months back.
After came to abroad initial days went ok, but too i am not able to get back my love for him.though i want to love him, like initial yrs of our marriage, i dont get any feeling or emotions for him. loneliness in abroad also slowly pushes me to depression again. after that wrong is only on my part. i didnt show any kind, speak any kind words to him. moreover, i put so much fights to him, pulling back the past, like why you did that? why u behaved like that even when i am pregnant? why u make me to go thru all this? and scold his parents badly ..etc. he wont argue or shout back, he just consoles, 'ok, we will begin a new start" and say all soothing words.i wonder, he is not shouting back, beating and all.
( but at backscreen, he called my brother for the every fight, and complaining that i am doing like this and that, etc. and got promise that my bro. should not say anything to me about his complaining of me.)

though i fight with him, as he take it calmly, my heart starts to love him back slowly, but i never expressed it.
Before 2 months, my mil's mil passes away. After 2 days his brother and father called and said that, the house-owner of the house we lived in india is making problem & has gave a police complaint; so u have to come india and put a signature; there is no other go. so, the very next day, my h booked flight tickets for 2 weeks to india and we flew to india the same day ;as our house is locked by house owner, we planned to go first to my mom's home, my h will settle the problem , then we go to my mil's house for the 'karya' that will took place after 10 days of death. here the bad time starts. once my fils knows, that we went to my mother's first he got that much angry, he didn't pickup my h's phone for 2 days. when my h called
3 rd day, he picked up the phone and shouted like anything, he shouted, how can u go to mils home first, you should not come to karya, etc. my h feared and just booked fight ticket and flew back the same night, leaving me and kid as such.
before going he called and said, i going back and going to die there. i didnt believe his words, never think he will leave me and kid like this go back to abroad just like that.
but next day he bro. called him in abroad cell number. i got very much angry on him and didnt talk for 5 days.
after i called him and cried, that how can u leave us like this and go, just because your father shouted.
He just turned the plate upside down, and said its only because of u, i came back. my father didnt do anything.and changed every thing. after one week he said to his parents that i am fighting so much with him, thats why he did like that.
he put all faults on my side. he only helped in cooking as i done a certification, but now he said i am not at all
cooking, he by his own didnt speak to his parents, but to his parents he said that i only said that 'you should not talk to your parents', that why i didnt talk to u for these past months,etc, etc.
his parents got angry, and asked my parents to come and speak to them. there they gave their speech and warned, that its the last time and all.
In this 2 months when my bro or called him, he just shouting all bad, and saying 'i dont have money to spent for flight and i wont call u back, be there itself'.
i cant understand him, he showed one face to me, one face to my bro, one face to his parents, now its totally different ugly face.
hi friends, i dont know what to do? how handle him, above all my ils too adding poison to him.

[Anta Assamey]

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[psycopk]

deniki em chepina waste.. vadu inko face chupistadu... lol

[k2s]

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[Sastrygaru]

that husband ko change karna.. mushkil nahi naa mumkin hai..

[siri_vennela]

pils aaa in-laws ki ee name epati nunchi using

[mustang302]

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[naidubaava]

Ilantollani handle cheyyali ante mundhu nuvvu financial ga independent state ki ravali, do what ever it takes to get there.

and then start your game.

[Nellore Pedda reddy]

[pikki]

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