Estory 3 : Maximus Raasaleelalu

[k2s]

Hello,

I have gone mad thinking about whatever has been happening in life. I got married an year ago. My husband says he likes me but he is not attracted to me physically. He feels I am very petite and so I look like a kid to him. I am 5 ft 2 inch weighing 47kgs currently.

I realized how he detests my physical appearance right on the day we landed here. I hate all those TV shows which shows girls as being nothing but only beautiful.We have body hair, we have bad hair days. We are just normal beings. I started working a month after coming here also because I always felt he has money issues. He denies money issues now. I worked on improving cooking, making romantic set-ups with candles, celebrating every milestone in the year like the day we met, engagement anniversary, his birthday and etc. Agreed that I don't have much experience with maintaining home. I spent all my life just studying to be some topper in class and went on to work in a good company. He never really seemed satisfied with any of my efforts.I tried to be whatever he wants me to be because he cared. He washed vessels, cooked, cleaned and we did lots of chores together. I can't change certain genes and the things I am born with. Like I can't be tall. I started hating myself in the mirror. My weight dropped drastically by 10kgs. I had severe pains during periods and doc advised me to take birth controls and we were still not having any sex. My husband appeared oblivious to this. I trie dot take him to the doc to discuss this but he just wont come. Agreed we dont want a kid and there are methods to prevent pregnancy.

I am not ugly. I am very fair. In fact I can easily pass off as an American or Kashmiri. I am very intelligent. I had so many guys after me in college and people hitting on me at work. I am driven to an edge now. I feel like stopping any random starnger and askign him if he finds me attractive.

I pamper my husband so much. He has bubble bath, massage in spa setting and what not. The first anniversary that we supposedly celebrated was not celebration.All day he watched TV. NOt one day he bought me a thing. My birthday just passed with cursory cake cutting. I don't bother him with when are we buying this and that and why can't we have this. I donno where I have gone wrong.

I wonder if we are husband and wife in real sense. We are polite to eahc other , help each other but things are changing these days. He doesn;t have any affair I am sure of it.

I am just not Happy here. I know the post is not well organised but I am just sad and low that I can't write well.

I need some advice. I know for sure I can't stay in an unhappy marriage and have kids for I have seen the suffering of such kids.

I have told him all that I feel but I don't see any difference.

[galiraju]

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[k2s]

Dear all,

Many of you had replied to my Posted above. Nothing much has changed since then but we are 17 months into marriage now.

I didn't Thank any of you then. I guess it is because I was in a denial mode and just wanted to forget that I even approached this Forum though I got back the next day to read few comments. Isn't that the beauty of being Anonymous. You have the luxury to deny or pretend that nothing happened because there is just no witness. Also, my name is of course not Miya and if you meet me with my husband you will either end up saying how sute we look together or lose sleep over whatever! [b]Thanks so much for all your support, concern, good wishes, love, care and suggestions.[/b] I am so overwhelmed. May be I don't Thank enough and hence I am in such a situation today.


He loves me and i love him too. We are great partners, buddies and best friends. He takes good care of me. He is there to pick me, drop me, Encourage me to do this and that. We are an awesome pair. He is the center of my world. I admire and respect him. If he needs something from me, all he has to do is just say it once. I would out of my way to be there for him. He is a gem, he is an awesome awesome being. Everyone looks at us in awe because we look a bit too perfect together!


The problem is he doesn't like to be touched, kissed or hugged. I am a normal middle-class girl and he is the closest I have got to a man. Being close to him has given way to fresh new feelings and I feel suppressed because I can't express it to him. I have never watched a porn or anything of the sort in my life. Never drooled over any model or actor. I don't think I even know a man's anatomy! I am pretty dumb. He is just right infront of me....flashing a beautiful smile and all I want is kiss, hug and .... to my heart's content. I can't do it because he gets irritated. When we are sitting close by, if by mistake I happen to touch his **** he just gives a blow on arm and gets serious.

He says we are fine. I say we are not fine. I was recently hyperventilating for over 4 weeks. He won't me touch me like a husband for 4 weeks and tells me that he doesn't miss the hugs and kisses and asks why can't we be just like this? I need to beg for him for his kiss/ hugs. I end up feeling like I am sex maniac or some prostitute kind. When I am sane and not crying, I feel he is not treating me liek a woman at all. My whole devotion and dedication to him is being insulted. On the other hand I also feel bad that He doesn't trust me enough to say what is going on.

I have written 100s of emails, pleaded and beg that I need doses of intimacy, hugs and kisses. He just cant listen anythign regarding this. The doctor recently even told me to go to a psychiatrist as I was having anxiety attack and hyperventilating.

I love this man so immensly. I wonder how he can't still feel/see it. I will stand by him and may be hide a thing or two from the world.

Help me. Guide me. Suggest me. You all have made a difference in my life before. Thanks.If I don't turn back here don;t worry. I get too upset at times and I get lost.

[psycopk]

em rasa leelalu vayya... asalu system ee shutdown stage lo undi ani edustunte..

[k2s]

[quote name='psycopk' timestamp='1360016531' post='1303225470']
em rasa leelalu vayya... asalu system ee shutdown stage lo undi ani edustunte..
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[Spartan]

I am not ugly. I am very fair. In fact I can easily pass off as an American or Kashmiri. I am very intelligent. I had so many guys after me in college and people hitting on me at work. I am driven to an edge now. I feel like stopping any random starnger and askign him if he finds me attractive.

I spent all my life just studying to be some topper in class and went on to work in a good company.

[galigannarao]

[quote name='ChittiNaidu' timestamp='1360016723' post='1303225492']
I am not ugly. I am very fair. In fact I can easily pass off as an American or Kashmiri. I am very intelligent. I had so many guys after me in college and people hitting on me at work. I am driven to an edge now. I feel like stopping any random starnger and askign him if he finds me attractive.

I spent all my life just studying to be some topper in class and went on to work in a good company.



[/quote]
neatga cook chesi pettindiga storyni

[Spartan]

[quote name='galigannarao' timestamp='1360016890' post='1303225509']
neatga cook chesi pettindiga storyni
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ade kada....

[kiladi bullodu]

[quote name='ChittiNaidu' timestamp='1360016723' post='1303225492']
I am not ugly. I am very fair. In fact I can easily pass off as an American or Kashmiri. I am very intelligent. I had so many guys after me in college and people hitting on me at work. I am driven to an edge now. I feel like stopping any random starnger and askign him if he finds me attractive.

I spent all my life just studying to be some topper in class and went on to work in a good company.



[/quote]

Mee office ye anukuntanu Aunty Dhi 5 2 height neku baga saropothundhi


Itlu
M 99 fan....

[Spartan]

[quote name='kiladi bullodu' timestamp='1360017098' post='1303225527']
Mee office ye anukuntanu Aunty Dhi 5 2 height neku baga saropothundhi


Itlu
M 99 fan....
[/quote]


kaani Petite personality antundi kada.....naaku busty type kaval..

[kiladi bullodu]

[quote name='ChittiNaidu' timestamp='1360017311' post='1303225554']



kaani Petite personality antundi kada.....naaku busty type kaval..
[/quote]
Silicon vaadu

[charygaru]

gay anukunta babu iga aunty evaranna abbayitoh affair pettukunattu uncle ki doubt teppisthe gaani manaki story endo ardham kaadu

[Spartan]

[quote name='charygaru' timestamp='1360019714' post='1303225807']
gay anukunta babu iga aunty evaranna abbayitoh affair pettukunattu uncle ki doubt teppisthe gaani manaki story endo ardham kaadu
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[sid_22]

mogudiki matter ledemo.......[img]http://i1015.photobucket.com/albums/af275/ussurox/dasibala.gif[/img]

[k2s]

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