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[LordOfMud]

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[Geeta]

Nallodito lechipo
Dippreshan poyedaaka baagaa pedataadu.

[Novak_Djokovic]

[idiBeZaWaDa]

Hi, really i don’t have right to live.

Mine is a love n arranged marriage. Before marriage also i don’t have good opinion/like about intimacy. I told my husband it before itself, but he told like no problem i will make u to like it.

After marriage in the first night also, he tried but as i got scared he didn’t force me and kept quiet. Later also he didn’t try to do anything for some days. Later though my husband did, i didn’t feel like satisfied or happy. So i was so eager to know what happy we get thru it.

After marriage before i move near my husband, on the last day of my office, i went out for a sendoff arranged by colleagues and on the way back, one of my colleague(he was trying to flirt me before my marriage, but I ignored it) came to drop me to my room. As it was raining, i asked him to stay until rain stop. But he took it as advantage and i resisted first but later i didn’t refuse and made mistake :( .
From the next moment itself i realized the mistake i have done, really i am not a human n i don’t have right to live, i cheated my hubby and my parents as well. They thought me good behavior and i grown up as very good girl. But i cheated them. I myself ruined my character.

My husband is very good in nature and he loved a lot me. But i cheated him. This thought is always coming and i really, whole heartedly cried a lot, i did a mistake, which i can’t rectify. I thought to do suicide but by remembering my loving husband and parents, i am unable to do it.
Really i can’t tell my pain which i am going thru now, really i am a cheater who don’t have right to live.
Though I know won’t repeat my mistake, the thought of my mistake itself killing me every second. With this frustration I am fighting always with my husband and avoiding him to touch me (as I became dirt / untouchable) and ruining his happiness as well.
I know everybody in this word will hate me. i thought to tell my husband, but i can’t see him, hating me and thinking of me as a cheater.
Please advise me, what can I do to get rid of this pain? Can I take divorce, so that he will marry any good girl and be happy in life?

courtesy: IL

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[idiBeZaWaDa]

Ippudu uncle touch cheygaane adee touch antademo..fapam vancle..upma prematho sachade

[mtkr]

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[chandra916]

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[Yuvatha]

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