Spartan Posted March 14, 2018 Report Posted March 14, 2018 I want to confess something here...I am depressed very much and want to vent out. I have been married for 10 years and have 2 wonderful girls...I have had abusive marriage.. Here is my story....Mine was an arranged marriage...I am married to a selfish man who always wanted my money instead of love (I work in an IT company)...In these 10 years, he has not bought me anything...I have had both physical and mental torture...He has hurt me badly that I have to live with the body injury and pain for the rest of my life...It is not curable... He drinks a lot and have abused me for asking him to stop this...I have even begged him to stop drinking..I have had bad experiences in the past when I was a child from drunkard men...So I hate drunkard men very badly...And whenever my H drinks and comes near me I vomit...He is least bothered about it....He has abused me verbally that I was living a love less life.....Abusive everyday...On top it, my MIL/FIL/SIL are all abusive...Each and everyday I wake up thinking who is going to abuse me today...Everyday was a hell.. With all this pain, I was living for my kids...I don't want my kids to lose a parent. During this time, I was offered for a transfer in my office for a couple of months...Even I wanted a break so I accepted where my H also joined after a couple of months irrespective of me asking him not to come....He was drinking daily there that I was fed up totally with my life...After he left, I went into total depression and was also feeling lonely...On top of it, I had the worst trouble in my office as well...Totally down, one of my colleagues came to rescue for my official problem...The relationship developed emotionally first and then eventually physical...I do not know what was I thinking...I am from a conservative family I have never thought of a man other than my H till that time...I felt very guilty and remorseful that I again went into depression very badly...I came back in a pathetic situation and attempted suicide thrice as well...I feel very depressed now...I feel pathetic about myself...Everyday is becoming very difficult for me to live...I am a great sinner...I am neither a good wife nor a good mother nor a good human being... I have not told anyone about this...It's hurting me very badly that I am unable to live in peace now...My family's abusement is still continuing which does not seem a big deal now as I think I deserve this treatment for committing this sin...I am a sinner Quote
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Spartan Posted March 14, 2018 Author Report Posted March 14, 2018 Just now, xxxmen said: Odale gadu lunch time aunty storys real emo anpistundi evi chusi @Odale movies and stories are always inspired by real lives... Quote
dasara_bullodu Posted March 14, 2018 Report Posted March 14, 2018 ee story chadivithe background lo tujh me rab dikhta hai ani vinipistondenti Quote
psycopk Posted March 14, 2018 Report Posted March 14, 2018 26 minutes ago, Spartan said: I want to confess something here...I am depressed very much and want to vent out. I have been married for 10 years and have 2 wonderful girls...I have had abusive marriage.. Here is my story....Mine was an arranged marriage...I am married to a selfish man who always wanted my money instead of love (I work in an IT company)...In these 10 years, he has not bought me anything...I have had both physical and mental torture...He has hurt me badly that I have to live with the body injury and pain for the rest of my life...It is not curable... He drinks a lot and have abused me for asking him to stop this...I have even begged him to stop drinking..I have had bad experiences in the past when I was a child from drunkard men...So I hate drunkard men very badly...And whenever my H drinks and comes near me I vomit...He is least bothered about it....He has abused me verbally that I was living a love less life.....Abusive everyday...On top it, my MIL/FIL/SIL are all abusive...Each and everyday I wake up thinking who is going to abuse me today...Everyday was a hell.. With all this pain, I was living for my kids...I don't want my kids to lose a parent. During this time, I was offered for a transfer in my office for a couple of months...Even I wanted a break so I accepted where my H also joined after a couple of months irrespective of me asking him not to come....He was drinking daily there that I was fed up totally with my life...After he left, I went into total depression and was also feeling lonely...On top of it, I had the worst trouble in my office as well...Totally down, one of my colleagues came to rescue for my official problem...The relationship developed emotionally first and then eventually physical...I do not know what was I thinking...I am from a conservative family I have never thought of a man other than my H till that time...I felt very guilty and remorseful that I again went into depression very badly...I came back in a pathetic situation and attempted suicide thrice as well...I feel very depressed now...I feel pathetic about myself...Everyday is becoming very difficult for me to live...I am a great sinner...I am neither a good wife nor a good mother nor a good human being... I have not told anyone about this...It's hurting me very badly that I am unable to live in peace now...My family's abusement is still continuing which does not seem a big deal now as I think I deserve this treatment for committing this sin...I am a sinner deni tapu ni kapi puchataniki… sollu reasons chepuntdi ani ekagrevam ga termanistunam.. 1 Quote
Spartan Posted March 14, 2018 Author Report Posted March 14, 2018 11 minutes ago, dasara_bullodu said: ee story chadivithe background lo tujh me rab dikhta hai ani vinipistondenti e thread kaadu adi. Quote
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