, I was just a simple, decent guy

[kevinUsa]

I live in New York M30. When I first came to the U.S. for my master's, I was just a simple, decent guy. I didn't talk much to girls and mostly kept to myself. But everything changed the day I walked into my roommate's room and saw a girl completely naked. I couldn't control myself, and one thing led to another.

 

That night awakened something inside me, and from that moment, I started exploring my desires. Soon, I found myself in situations I had never imagined one of them being with my friend's girlfriend while he watched and enjoyed it. That was my introduction to the cuckold lifestyle, and it became something I craved more and more.

[kevinUsa]

For the past year, I fully embraced this life, meeting couples who enjoyed the same thing. Some men loved watching their wives with me, while others wanted to be involved in different ways.

 

It became a habit, something that brought me peace and excitement. But things took a turn when I got married. At first, I thought I could leave my past behind, but I had been secretly keeping videos of my past experiences. One day, my wife found them. She was furious, and we had severe arguments. She couldn't believe I had hidden this part of my life from her.

[kevinUsa]

She fought with me and left. For weeks, she didn't contact me. When she finally came back, she said she had been

 

staying at a friend's place. But the truth was much worse. She had been with her master's roommate her ex and not just him. It was a threesome. I wouldn't have even known if I hadn't found the videos in our shared iCloud.

[kevinUsa]

Now, she's pregnant, and I have no idea whose baby it is. It feels like a nightmare I can't wake up from. I asked her to end the pregnancy, but she refused. I feel lost, broken, and trapped in a situation I never imagined. What do I do now? How do I even move forward? I need help-any suggestions?

[nag]

What you sow is what  you reap