Random thoughts on my walks

[LuckyCharm]

Power of Manifestation of dreams they say.

I have a hard time visualizing myself being happy in a relationship.

How do you love without the fear of loss for reasons that may be in control or out of control?

I have loved and lost, 

I loved this person so much, a bit more than I loved myself.

It's the time I realized how much I could love a second person

How giving and kind I could be and I loved myself even more loving this person.

I found joy in his happiness, grieved his losses

And always had my best wishes for whatever his heart desired.

I didn’t even had to possess him, just knowing that he existed gave me strength to overcome challenges.

Then I had to suffer the loss as that person existed only on my mind and not in reality.

I blindfolded myself to reality and saw things only I wanted to see.

Living in a bubble and having false hopes.

I moved on.

Now I try to look at things the way they are rather than the way I want to.

Sometimes I wonder if it is possible to experience or feel all those feelings again.

Some say I should stop dreaming and things like that happen only in movies and books.

But that was the truest thing I have ever experienced till date.

It all felt so magical back then and also I realized now that the magic was me 

 

 

 

[Epic]

My heart says 

My mind says 

[DummyVariable]

Inviting @kalaa_pipaasi to decode this 

[LuckyCharm]

26 minutes ago, Epic said:

My heart says 

My mind says 

Felt like writing

stay tuned, more to come

[DummyVariable]

8 minutes ago, LuckyCharm said:

Felt like writing

stay tuned, more to come

Manchi mood lo unnav, mee deggara weather baagundha enti

[Mirage]

3 minutes ago, DummyVariable said:

Manchi mood lo unnav, mee deggara weather baagundha enti

It’s always sunny in Philadelphia 

[LuckyCharm]

4 minutes ago, DummyVariable said:

Manchi mood lo unnav, mee deggara weather baagundha enti

Yea. I didn’t even had to eat food to feel good.

[Mirage]

28 minutes ago, DummyVariable said:

Inviting @kalaa_pipaasi to decode this 

+1

[Amy99]

13 minutes ago, LuckyCharm said:

Felt like writing

stay tuned, more to come

Nice... Keep them coming. 

[LuckyCharm]

7 minutes ago, Mirage said:

It’s always sunny in Philadelphia 

Weather is Bipolar here though 

[Epic]

46 minutes ago, LuckyCharm said:

Felt like writing

stay tuned, more to come

Go for running - you will get more agressive thoughts. JK

[kalaa_pipaasi]

7 hours ago, DummyVariable said:

Inviting @kalaa_pipaasi to decode this 

Kavi hrudhayanni artham cheskodam (decode) kanna aaswadinchadame manaki ekkuva aanandhanni isthundemo.

Konni decoding kastam.enjoy cheyadame alanti vatini 

[kalaa_pipaasi]

8 hours ago, LuckyCharm said:

Power of Manifestation of dreams they say.

I have a hard time visualizing myself being happy in a relationship.

How do you love without the fear of loss for reasons that may be in control or out of control?

I have loved and lost, 

I loved this person so much, a bit more than I loved myself.

It's the time I realized how much I could love a second person

How giving and kind I could be and I loved myself even more loving this person.

I found joy in his happiness, grieved his losses

And always had my best wishes for whatever his heart desired.

I didn’t even had to possess him, just knowing that he existed gave me strength to overcome challenges.

Then I had to suffer the loss as that person existed only on my mind and not in reality.

I blindfolded myself to reality and saw things only I wanted to see.

Living in a bubble and having false hopes.

I moved on.

Now I try to look at things the way they are rather than the way I want to.

Sometimes I wonder if it is possible to experience or feel all those feelings again.

Some say I should stop dreaming and things like that happen only in movies and books.

But that was the truest thing I have ever experienced till date.

It all felt so magical back then and also I realized now that the magic was me 

 

 

 

Now take it easy

 

[Mirage]

1 hour ago, kalaa_pipaasi said:

Kavi hrudhayanni artham cheskodam (decode) kanna aaswadinchadame manaki ekkuva aanandhanni isthundemo.

Konni decoding kastam.enjoy cheyadame alanti vatini 

@kalaa_pipaasi nuvvu enduku vayya intha @kalaa_pipaasivi

[kalaa_pipaasi]

1 hour ago, Mirage said:

@kalaa_pipaasi nuvvu enduku vayya intha @kalaa_pipaasivi

na vallane neekinni kastalochayi ante nenu ellipotha mowa